Prayers

I haven't written in a while because basically there isn't a lot I can say.  I can tell you that I have cried, prayed researched and BEGGED God to do something.  Right now I am tired, hurt, confused and frustrated.  I feel as though my beliefs have been attacked.  I feel that I have been asked to compromise my beliefs by those who are supposed to be on my side. 

It seems that one of the smallest points of our family life has become the focus of a debate.  A debate that will not end.  A debate that may never resolve.  We have continued to stand firm on the Word of God.  We have continued to fight, but in all honesty, I am a wounded soldier.  I'm tired of fighting.  I'm tired of crying. 

Have you ever gotten to that place where all you can do is hold on with your little finger to the firm foundation of Jesus Christ?  Have you ever thought, "Lord, you are all the hope I have left and I'm placing every last bet on you."?  Have you ever gotten to the place where all you can do is look up and trust that following Jesus is the right thing to do and He will bless you?  Have you wondered if there really is something better planned for you?

That is where I am now.  Last night, I told the Lord that there is nothing left for me to do.  There is no control left for me to have.  I'm laying it all at His feet and walking away.  I am helpless without Him.  I have nothing without Him.  He is my shelter in this storm and He will cover me and my family.  He will resolve this issue in His time and I will lay in His arms and rest until my strength returns.